What am I trying so hard to attain?

So I’m a part of a group called “Soul School” with Alexi Panos and we’ve been doing a lot of work. Like, A LOT of work. Personal development, looking within, sitting with the discomforts of life and celebrating the magic moments that are in every waking moment we’re alive.

Check it out here if you’re interested in or are so led to digging deep within and discovering who you are and how to become the best version of yourself possible. 😉

Well, anyway. We were in a Facebook Live and the following 2 questions were asked:

1. “What have I been trying to get to and my evolution?”
2. “What has been my destination?”

We were challenged to write down our answers. And then tear them up. To be done with the ridiculousness once and for all, knowing that it’s not real. And that we are just where we need to be. That we are enough.

And, well… As I’m a little embarrassed to tell you what my exact answers were, I’m going to tell you anyway. (Because damnit! I shall not bow down in the face of fear!)

It is honestly very eye-opening for me to put words to what my ambitions have been over the past years of personal development, so here goes…

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So.

What is it that I have been trying so hard to attain?

I have literally been trying to become the best version of myself so that I can attain perfection in the sense that I never make a single mistake and that I am seen as perfect and nice and good and the best person all the time

As well as, once achieving this, I’ve believed that I may be able to make ALL THE MONEY IN THE WORLD! (Because I’m such a good person…)

And, haha!!! How incredibly ridiculous does this sound?! I’m literally rolling on the floor. It’s really hilarious to me.

And it is really good for me to have perspective on this too! And to start retraining and rewiring my brain to believe what is actually true…

Which is this:

I am human. And imperfection IS perfection. The messiness is beautiful.

I will make money when I’m meant to. Not one second before, not one second after.

And I will provide value for others, which will in turn, provide me with some form of value as well! (Whether it be in the form of housing, money, food, etc.)

Personal growth and development is (officially starting now!)  just one strategy to becoming the best version of myself possible in order to help others in the best way possible.

To come back to the truth of who I really am, which is love.

So the question I pose to you is this: What have YOU been seeking, chasing after, trying to attain? What will you write out and rip to shreds?

I challenge you to sit with this for a moment. Write it out.

..And then shred the SHIT out of it!

Just do it!  Because you can.

Thank you for reading!

I love you.

Love always,
❤ Brittany

#WhateverArisesLoveThat #ShredThatShit #Whoohoo #JustDoIt

Just keep moving

It was literally the difference between life and death.

You see, I went for a bike ride.

Gorgeous morning, cool breeze, slight humidity in the air. The sun peaking through the clouds.

One girl. One bike. One trail.

So I’m riding. Wind in my hair, sunshine glistens on my cheeks.

I stumble upon something…

A pool of water. Just sitting there. No movement. No life.

Stagnant. Dirty. Decaying.

A foul odor permeated the air. I couldn’t help but wince.

“Peddle faster.”

So I did.

Another few bends in the road, a beautiful trail among tall trees.

Mostly deciduous. Dancing with the breeze.

Wildlife buzzing through the air. Rustling through the leaves. Magic everywhere.

A tiny concrete bridge, over a tiny flowing brooke.

Ahh… the sound of trickling water.

Soothing, calming.

Fresh air surrounds me. Life abounding.

The MOVEMENT. The flow of the water gliding over the rocks and stones and pebbles.

And it reminded me of this beautiful life. The one that can be as magical as we wish it to be. The one we have (almost) complete control over the outcomes. (At least our perspectives and the meanings we attach to them.)

The choices we choose to make, and the feelings we allow to linger and stay.

And I was reminded of how life is such an ebb and flow.

How we find ourselves in circumstance and opposition, in happiness and joy and love. And if we can just keep moving, everything has the chance to flow evermore gracefully.

We can be so much more radiant. So full of life. And light.

And ultimately, it is WE who get to choose to grow or regress.

To become stronger. Or wiser.

Perhaps we’ll simply settle for a weaker existence. Maybe we’ll dull out.

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And if we can learn anything from nature it is the art of flow.

I’m an avid student of life. I learn as I go.

And whatever pain experienced, finding the surprises in the outcomes. Like little lessons tucked away just waiting for me to open them.

So my question is this: What lesson is life offering up to us right now? And how can we master the art of flow in our lives so that we can live it ever more gracefully? More gently?

I love you. You are absolutely wonderful. And beautiful beyond measure.

What’s your soul crying out for today?

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So, I went on this bike ride…

and it turned into this poem.

I love you forever,
❤ B

P.S. See what I did there? Forever truly is a long time. But then again, time is merely a feeling. Muah ❤

From breakdown to breakthrough

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Here I am again.

On the brink of another breakthrough.

Growing and learning and breaking down.

Hard.

And it’s terrifying.

And exciting.

The realization that INFINITY exists, and to even slightly begin to wrap our minds around it begins a process of true bliss that we can’t really stop. That we would never wish to stop. When we come to realize that we create our own limitations. That literally ANYTHING we want truly DOES exist and can become a part of our daily lives if we just BELIEVE.

Ohh how I have been in a constant state of thinking, over-thinking, analyzing EVERYTHING down to the tiniest particle. Going through the breakdowns, the breakthroughs. Helping and healing myself. And in turn others.

My entire perspective on life constantly evolving. Changing with every moment that I interact with the world around me. Within me.

Recognizing that we are all one in the same. We are spirit.

And all we truly need IS love. To love, and to be loved. To speak with love. Act with love.

Intentions.

Recognising just how MUCH time we spend in our ego, and how much more life has to offer us when we live in spirit. When we speak from our hearts instead of our heads. When we become vulnerable enough to have the ability to connect with others around us in such a way that we feel love in the deepest capacity.

Love is in everything we do. I see love all around me.

In the eyes of strangers. In the laughter of a child at play. In the plate of food that will nourish my body. In nature. A tree. A flower. A stream trickling over rocks through parks and farms and plains.

I see love when I close my eyes. I see it in my dreams.

And I feel it in a moment of bliss. When the wind blows past my cheeks. In a delicate kiss.

What is love then you ask?

Love is you.

Love is me.

I love you to infinity,
❤ B

Coming back to love

When I come back to a place of love, I don’t feel empty any longer.

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I was just thinking about life.. like I normally do. Deeply analyzing why I’m doing what I’m doing, why I have certain thoughts, why I believe what I believe, and how I’m forming decisions.

Trying to define myself all the while…that’s how I feel secure in life..to have this “role” I define myself by, whether it be job title or family title…but eventually THAT feels constricting because now I’ve placed myself into a box. Limitations creep in and I feel suffocated.

All of this can be quite energy depleting, not to mention overwhelming when I keep it all to myself. Hold it all in.

So I was reading a Wayne Dyer email I received (his family is still sending them out..how amazing is that?!) And the words he wrote were perfect for me to hear at just this exact moment. Something struck a chord in me.

I started balling! In fact, my cheeks are still wet as I write this..

I kept trying to “figure out” who I am in the eyes of others. I know myself, but how does the world see me? My family, my friends, my coworkers, strangers…

How am I showing up on the outside? I know how I’m feeling on the INSIDE…

Are my actions and decisions frowned upon? Should I go after a “soul-calling” to travel and experience the world without “security” of a job? Or should I just stay in one location for the rest of my life to suit everyone else? To hold on to the security of the job? To make others happy…and then maybe I will be too?

And the “conclusive question” I came to is this.. does it even matter?

Who cares what other people think?

Either way, people will think what they want to. Period.

There’s no changing that. I could try to manipulate people into thinking one way or another…but honestly, that’s a whole lot of work for something that truly doesn’t matter.

The real question is…”What do I think?”

That’s more true for me.

I know myself better than anyone else. Sometimes I don’t see things in myself and others help me to see aspects of my personality that I am blinded by..but my truest nature? I KNOW down to my BONES my truest nature.

And that is one of love.

Wayne Dyer is an amazing being.

Here are 2 little excerpts that I’ll leave you with today that totally rocked my world..

“Remove labels attached to your life. Make an attempt to describe yourself without using any labels. Write a few paragraphs in which you do not mention your age, sex, position, title, accomplishments, possessions, experiences, heritage or geographic data. Simple write a statement about who you are, independent of all appearances.

Cultivate your calling. Make an attempt to shift your career objective from self-absorption to a calling. That’s right, a calling. Remind yourself that this is an intelligent system and that you are here to be love and have love by serving. Use your talents and special interests to fulfill your service with your calling. Your life work will take on a dramatic shift toward abundance, and you will feel on purpose and on the path of the sacred quest.””

— Dr. Wayne W. Dyer

Just. Be. YOU.

That is all God asks. That is all the universe asks.

We are all beings of light and love. Go and be that. Today.

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I love you,
❤ Brittany

The moment of realization

 

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Outside.

Just sitting in my chair.

Gorgeous morning.

The breeze flows through the leaves on trees swaying back and forth in one constant motion.

The sun is slightly diminished by the clouds, as if some filter were covering it.

And I sit.

In my chair.

Bundled up in the warmest clothes I could find – gloves and all. A fleece blanket swadling my legs.

I breathe deeply.

In…

and out.

A thought about work pops into my mind, so I allow the thoughts to take up space there, to go where they will. I never know where they’ll lead me, but they generally give me much needed perspective of where I am so far in life and how to get to where I’m going.

I start to think of all the people I work with.

And as I sit here breathing the fresh autumn air that is so abundant in this moment, I become aware of something: I have the ability to connect with each and every person I work with.

Every one of them!

But not only that, the biggest realization will come later. After those thoughts pass. I start feeling lighter.

Because for so many years I have been getting down on myself for not mastering something. Just one thing. Something that I am known for.

I feel sometimes that I am behind or failing somehow in life because I have dabbled in so many things, never focusing on just one area of life. Or work, especially.

And here’s what became the fuel of this post: The biggest realization is that I was supposed to just dabble. In LOTS of things! Because in doing so, I now have the ability to connect on so many different levels with so many different kinds of people!

(So there IS a method to the madness after all..) 🙂

And I am known for something – for positively affecting each person I come into contact with. For inspiring those around me. Loving unconditionally with my whole heart – living a life of compassion.

So let’s try again: Failure?

I think not.

I’m just where I need to be. In fact we ALL are!

I’m doing what I need to do. And I trust that I’ll continue to keep listening, doing what I feel led to do in every moment.


So how about you? What thoughts fill your mind?

I challenge you to dig deep and examine them.

To be present.

To put down the phone. Turn off the T.V. Just sit in silence for a change.

Watch your thoughts. Be consciously aware of them. After all, you may be surprised at what you’ll find. 😉


Thanks so much for reading!

I love you.

I hope this message inspires you to greatness 🙂

With all the energy and joy a heart can hold,
❤ Brittany

Living Consciously

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So I’ve been reading a lot lately on the idea of living consciously. This way of life is a bit foreign to us these days, where it seems as if everyone is just trying to get by and survive each day as it comes.

Many people form habits on a subconscious level (throughout their life-time) and without even realizing it, do certain things automatically, as if they are on auto-pilot at times.

This is the kind of behavior that can cause us to live less conscious lives than we could be living, and that’s what we will focus on today: the idea of conscious living.

So what does it even mean to ‘live consciously’?

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Well, here’s where I turn to my good friend Nathaniel Branden for his take on the subject, as he knows plenty more than I in this regard!

These are excerpts taken from different sections of his book The Art of Living Consciously that will give us a general view of what this might look like:

“Living consciously has its roots in respect for reality-a respect for facts and truth…living in a rational world. To live consciously, we need to develop what I call ‘a sense of reality.’ One of the meanings of living consciously is: Pay attention to what works, and do more of it, and try to understand the principles involved. And also: Pay attention to what doesn’t work, and stop doing it.”

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Personally, I like the idea of living consciously because it’s a way of life that seeks to keep us in a constant state of awareness. If we seek to live out our days this way, we’re not so easily taken by surprise.

We don’t have that moment when all of a sudden we come to realize we’ve just been ‘going through the motions’ our entire lives, and now it’s too late for a re-do. The time is gone. We cannot get it back.

Living life ‘on purpose’ is conducive to long-term growth and development, and allows you (if you so choose) to grow, and learn, and better yourself in all walks of life.

Many people think that if they were to start living consciously that living life would be too painful, that they wouldn’t be able to deal with their problems or be able to cope with the life they’ve created for themselves.

But I say nonsense.

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I say that by living consciously you will actually do yourself a favor. You will benefit yourself more in the long-run, enabling you to see where you are now in order to make the necessary changes it takes to get to where you want to be.

Live consciously, and be free.

Be aware.

Be love.

If you have any questions, ideas, or opinions you’d like to share, feel free to leave me a note on the site! And as usual, comments and feedback are always welcome : )