Coming back to love

When I come back to a place of love, I don’t feel empty any longer.

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I was just thinking about life.. like I normally do. Deeply analyzing why I’m doing what I’m doing, why I have certain thoughts, why I believe what I believe, and how I’m forming decisions.

Trying to define myself all the while…that’s how I feel secure in life..to have this “role” I define myself by, whether it be job title or family title…but eventually THAT feels constricting because now I’ve placed myself into a box. Limitations creep in and I feel suffocated.

All of this can be quite energy depleting, not to mention overwhelming when I keep it all to myself. Hold it all in.

So I was reading a Wayne Dyer email I received (his family is still sending them out..how amazing is that?!) And the words he wrote were perfect for me to hear at just this exact moment. Something struck a chord in me.

I started balling! In fact, my cheeks are still wet as I write this..

I kept trying to “figure out” who I am in the eyes of others. I know myself, but how does the world see me? My family, my friends, my coworkers, strangers…

How am I showing up on the outside? I know how I’m feeling on the INSIDE…

Are my actions and decisions frowned upon? Should I go after a “soul-calling” to travel and experience the world without “security” of a job? Or should I just stay in one location for the rest of my life to suit everyone else? To hold on to the security of the job? To make others happy…and then maybe I will be too?

And the “conclusive question” I came to is this.. does it even matter?

Who cares what other people think?

Either way, people will think what they want to. Period.

There’s no changing that. I could try to manipulate people into thinking one way or another…but honestly, that’s a whole lot of work for something that truly doesn’t matter.

The real question is…”What do I think?”

That’s more true for me.

I know myself better than anyone else. Sometimes I don’t see things in myself and others help me to see aspects of my personality that I am blinded by..but my truest nature? I KNOW down to my BONES my truest nature.

And that is one of love.

Wayne Dyer is an amazing being.

Here are 2 little excerpts that I’ll leave you with today that totally rocked my world..

“Remove labels attached to your life. Make an attempt to describe yourself without using any labels. Write a few paragraphs in which you do not mention your age, sex, position, title, accomplishments, possessions, experiences, heritage or geographic data. Simple write a statement about who you are, independent of all appearances.

Cultivate your calling. Make an attempt to shift your career objective from self-absorption to a calling. That’s right, a calling. Remind yourself that this is an intelligent system and that you are here to be love and have love by serving. Use your talents and special interests to fulfill your service with your calling. Your life work will take on a dramatic shift toward abundance, and you will feel on purpose and on the path of the sacred quest.””

— Dr. Wayne W. Dyer

Just. Be. YOU.

That is all God asks. That is all the universe asks.

We are all beings of light and love. Go and be that. Today.

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I love you,
❤ Brittany

Five years ALREADY?

So today is my 5-year wedding anniversary..(wow, has it really been five years?!) Interesting how the time goes by whether we ask it to or not..we can’t control it..and after all, time is just a feeling.

Anyway, back to the message at hand.. 😉

So I felt inclined to read through an old letter my husband wrote me last year, that I stumbled upon this morning in my dresser drawer. Of course, I was hit with tremendous waves of emotion..mainly those of deep gratitude, joy, and love.

I am so grateful to get to peek inside his heart at any given moment, day or night, through his gifts of the written word tucked away in notes for only my eyes to see.

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I love that he puts in the time and effort to express his love, devotion, and appreciation to me in his writing. I really am loved. And I am so grateful for that.

I wanted to write a blog-post, well..mainly because I’ve gotta get down to the REALITIES of life, love, and marriage..but ALSO I wrote too much within a single Facebook post (haha!) so I figured I’d transfer it over here where it’s more easily accessed, read, and so on..

Sooo…MARRIAGE. Oh, what to say about marriage.

It’s definitely not what I thought it would be..

It’s MORE.

Like, I never thought a person could encounter so much happiness, and struggle and pain, move through it, and end up on the other side stronger and more in love than ever. And oh, has it been a ride!

I’ve literally wanted to give up more times than I can count, thinking the grass would always be greener on the other side..but then after sticking through the tough times, speaking my truths, being completely torn apart and vulnerable and communicating with words and actions of love..failing with the love part sometimes a lot..but continuing on..

Well, it turns out that keeping both feet in only made for a better tomorrow..and the next day.

There’s a quote I’m reminded of in this moment..”That which is most satisfying is that which is earned. Anything received free of charge is seldom valued. You can’t get something for (from) nothing. The price is too high.” -Kekich Credo #38

So the message I really want to convey today is this: anything actually worth having will require a certain level of persistence, effort, commitment, and understanding. If I have learned anything in my marriage over the past five years, it is that we create our own realities and that we have all the power in the world to cultivate what we want in life… especially in our relationships, not only with ourselves, but with the ones we love most dear.

I am coming to realize that within this experience I call our “humanness,” is wherein lies absolute perfection.

Without the sudden changes, the unknowns, the plans not going according to plan.. all of it is on purpose. And we don’t have to understand right away, or ever know why. But, what we can do, is trust that in someway, whatever happens in our reality is what’s meant to happen. It’s what’s better for us in the long run. Even if we don’t fully understand it in the moment.

My marriage has been filled with all sorts of amazing things: lessons and learning, adventure, passion, love, joy, faithfulness, commitment..but I won’t delude anyone into thinking that it’s been an easy ride..or “perfect” in the sense that nothing painful ever happens.

Just because on my Facebook profile you only see the happy, adventurous, seemingly-perfect moments, doesn’t mean the exact opposite hasn’t been a complete part of my journey here as well. In fact, much of my time has been spent in darker places before the sun could shine through.

In my marriage over the past 5 years, there has been miscommunication, pain, personal suffering, confusion, questioning, fights, arguments, you name it… But in the end, and through it all, my husband and I both have grown tremendously and are exponentially stronger than ever for going through the pain, truly dealing with it, and moving forward.

I hope that this message can shed some light on some of the realities of life. I hope that what you gain from reading these words is that life in itself IS perfection. All of it’s seemingly random moments, the confusion, the pain, the struggle, the loss, and most of all the messiness.

It’s all a part of the journey.

And the more we can honor and embrace those tougher moments, and really GO deep within ourselves to find our truth and deal with what’s coming up for us, the better off we are in the long run.

I was chatting with my friend Brittany just last night..and we talked about the truth that “the old must die off, before the new can come in.” And what a solid truth that is..in ALL aspects of our lives!

So. Here’s to five-years my love! I am now such a radically changed human in comparison to who I was when we first met.. the old has officially died off (and continues to die more every day) and the new is shining through. I see light in our future. Abundance. Joy. Growth. And a whole lotta love.

I love you more than words could ever express and I look forward to the adventures and struggles that lie ahead..which will only serve to move us closer to our goals in healing the world and making it a better place..making a positive impact on those we meet along the way.

Happy sunshiney day! Be a light in the darkness. Find the magic in all the moments. And live with purpose. Joy. And a heart full of love.

Sincerely yours,
❤ B

My heart weeps in moments like these

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!WARNING: This is an extremely controversial topic, but I can’t help but share some of my thoughts. You’re welcome to disagree, to quit reading after the first paragraph, or to comment with any thoughts or emotions that are brought up for you.

Keep in mind while reading, that this post is out of love. For the love of the animals! And the planet. ❤ I love you.

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Big truck. Semi. Hundreds of tiny feather-lined cages. Now empty.

Tears fall down my cheeks. I know the truth. I know the torture. Innocent babies. Innocent friends.

Murdered.

Nobody realizes. Nobody realizes the truth.

Super market shelves stocked full of cleaned meats, organized & all prettied up for display. No blood. No tears. Nobody realizes the torture that went into getting that meat from factory farm to market.

I cry. Weep. I feel extreme pains in my chest. My stomach turns.

I was once a murderer too. In a way. I paid others to kill animals, so that I could get my daily dose of protein and flavor. I thought it was the only way. I was once paying for my plates ‘full of fear’ at the local restaurants. Everywhere. Plates full of sadness. I didn’t know. In fact, I had no idea.

I grew up eating this way, why would I ever change?

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It is in these moments that I am so grateful for finding a different path. A new path. A diet that is filled with compassion and love, no animals harmed in the process.

When I see trucks filled to the brim with livestock living beings, my beautiful friends, I want so badly to set them free. I want so badly to purchase them myself and give them home. A kind home, full of love and peace and playfulness. A place where they can live their lives. The way they were meant to.

I believe I will one day own my personal animal sanctuary. I can’t help but feel extreme compassion for living beings. I can’t help but love on all the animals that roam this beautiful earth.

They’re all here for a reason, and I’m not so positive it’s just so we could eat them. They have souls. Just as we do. We wouldn’t eat each other–or our cats, or our dogs, or horses–so what makes a chicken, a fish, a pig, a deer, a lamb, or a cow any different?

They play. They all have the ability to feel joy. Feel fear. Nurture their young, and protect their families from harm. They’re so much like we humans. But we fail to see that sometimes.

This video brings up extreme emotions for me. At 1:17 into the video when the cows start literally jumping in the air, full of happiness and joy, I myself am filled with those emotions 🙂 But it also pains me. I wish all cows could experience life in this way. But they don’t.

This inspires me. Inspires me to make a difference. To create a peaceful planet full of safety and love. A place where all beings look out for one another, despite their species.

But it all starts right here. With me. In order to create the world I want, I must start actually doing things in my own life. Creating real change in myself, in order to create the change I want to see in the world.

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This post wasn’t written to bring up guilt in those who choose to eat meat. It’s not so I can say to everyone “I’m right. You’re wrong.”

I don’t know everything. I only know what I feel and what I experience personally.

The reason I wrote this was to bring up an alternative perspective. I understand that our culture tells us a different story. We’re brought up in homes with parents who teach us their ways, and many of us never question it, let alone change it.

I’m only asking that more people just think about the other side of the story for a second. See if their lifestyles are consistent with their deepest values. I mean really think about it.

And, if during that search within yourself, you find that perhaps your lifestyle doesn’t quite match up with your values, it might be something worth looking into.

Again, I love you. I’m so grateful for you. We’re all here for a reason. Let’s make a positive change in the lives of each other. In the lives of all living beings.

With peace & love and as much gratitude a heart can hold,
❤ Brittany

Photo Credit: Compassion Over Killing – http://www.cok.net/inv/maryland-egg-farms/county-fair-farms/02_4cff05cu3/